Surrender.Give in, give over something larger than yourself. Sink to the floor and cry and wail, and acknowledge you're lost, confused, afraid. Give in, give over something wiser than yourself. Stop trying to work out solutions in yor brain, and let go of your desire to be in control. Cry out "it's too hard" if it feels that way. Yell and scream "it's not fair" if it isn't. When you're through kicking and screaming, just surrender. Stop strategizing, stop running your life through a "what if" spreadsheet. Just give in. Through your tears, imagine a place where you can drop off a basketful of your pain, fear, and darkness and say "here, its yours" to a kindly soul who will return your emotional laundry in a cleaner, crisper form. But first you must say, I surrender.
